Surrendering, acceptance, irresponsibility and fatalism

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Parivrtta Trikonasana

I am not actually convinced that I somehow became a better person, a better version of myself, since I started practicing.

I can only say that now I find myself calmer than usual, and more focused, yeilding and aware of my limits. More aware but more irresponsible as well. I still have to find how to fix that irresponsibility and to understand if it came along as a drawback of a sort of surrendering and acceptance I seem to have developed.

I also need to confirm that that surrendering and acceptance is not in fact fatalism.

Whatever, I definitely do not regret me embarking on this journey.

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