Die-hard habits

ūrdhva dhanurāsana

I am learning the hard way that the practice by itself doesn't change anything within if you don't commit all yourself to grab whatever is coming.

It's understandable that a leap forward in your physical practice doesn't go hand in hand with an inner improvement, but when you notice signs of worsening in certain areas, that's frustrating.

I am in need of a steadier mind and a bit of inner harmony and that's exactly where I am slipping back. Not funny at all.

But, what is it? A lack of honesty? A shortage of intent? A wrong perspective?

Or just an overstressed mind?

And: how to fix it?

Maybe through some serious karma yoga in order to stop being foremost on my thoughts?