Upward and downward trends: or my own parabolic curve as an ashtangi

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  • I take up practicing to replace another activity I can no longer perform, and to calm and focus my mind.
  • At first everything is fine and I start getting a taste for it.
  • My mind begins to focus and find some peace.
  • Little by little all my previous injuries reappear, one in particular dating back to my college years.
  • I find out that the practice also helps me relieve stress.
  • Gradually my old injuries are “reabsorbed” and fixed.
  • My physical fitness is improving noticeably.
  • Practice also improves accordingly.
  • External unsettling factors push stress levels up again.
  • My mind starts being less restrainable, I feel like I’m losing my concentration and peace of mind.
  • I lose some of the flexibility acquired in my hamstrings.
  • An old injury to the Achilles tendon is coming back.
  • …whatever…
  • And the wheel of time keeps turning ⚙⏳

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