Polishing up obsession

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Janu Sirsasana C

I have to stop looking at pics of my poses because I will end up obsessing.

Excluding the simpler and more immediate aspects, I know I don't have the bases to correct myself, so better let it go and wait for someone qualified to do it.

I don't really understand why I suddenly got all this craving for polishing up, it must be a side effect of this new habit of recording myself on video I developped during all these months of solo practice.

This too shall pass - I'll get over it.

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